Struggling with life.

Not what I was planning on posting about at all. But something that is heavy on my heart today.

This morning I was feeling really down. Definitely more than I should have. I have alot on my plate at any given time. I work a full time job and raising three daughters. I barely get any time to myself. It is just how it is. Life is like that sometimes.

I struggle from time to time with not being good enough. Sometimes it is cause I forget something my wife wanted me to do. Sometimes it is I couldn't get to something one of my daughters wanted me to do. Sometimes it cause can't get something done that I was trying to do.

But it stems from my youth and my dad saying I was good for nothing. It haunts me to this day even though I know it is wrong. I feel that I'm have been programmed to hate myself for not being good enough and I can't find the manual to reprogram. I really think it might be something I struggle with for the rest of my life.

But I am feeling better now. Cause I wasn't happy in feeling down. I thought to let it out instead of bottling it up. Took a couple deep breaths. Remembering that I am not useless. Remembering that I am here for a purpose and that I have value. Remembering my faith and understanding that sometimes you just need to reach out to get help.

So what I will say is if your struggling with something don't be afraid to ask for help even if it is just in pray. I truly believe that letting things go is much healthier than bottling it up.